Moment by moment, my faith in love is tested. It is wrung out, stretched thin and left in the elements. Doubts grow and multiply, making even the good moments difficult. I am in an uncertain place. But I guess all places are uncertain. I push the limits of my ability to accept. Accept the possibility that it is all too temporary. Accept that there is a fine line between protecting myself and pushing someone away. Accept that I will find peace in my heart, one way or the other. Accept that love is not always returned. That perhaps my story goes somewhere other than this place. Nobody ever said it would be easy. The faith I must keep is the faith I have in myself and knowing that if it is too much to shoulder, I will be able to walk away. That I will not settle for anything less than love. And that I deserve more than half-promises and unanswered questions.
I accept that I am flawed. I accept that I want love, but that it may not be what I thought it would be. I accept that I may not find what I was looking for here. I accept that I may fail, but if I do, I will pick myself up and try again. I accept that I cannot change anybody but myself. And I accept that it may take some time, but that I will ultimately find serenity.
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It is at times difficult to come to a point of acceptance but it is important to do it in order to turn the corner and take our walk down the next street! 🙂
The Serenity Prayer has helped me through some pretty challenging times! Thanks for sharing it! 🙂
December 11, 2008 at 3:20 pmI said the serenity prayer this morning, and I could have written this very blog post (!). Wounded hearts and feelings of uncertainty don’t stay that way forever.
December 19, 2008 at 10:15 pm