I didn’t do it, I didn’t move to San Niccolò. After two days of dragging stuff there and cleaning furiously, all I wanted to do was cry every time I walked in the door. It was more like a filthy cell in a wonderful neighborhood. But I would have had to start from scratch, as the girls there don’t even have a mop. After all of the trouble of this whole thing, I have decided to stay where I am for the moment. Cazzatore will be moving out soon, and then I will navigate my way through a life spent battling ghosts. I live in a big, cheap apartment with people I already know, and with the ability to have guests over and not worrying about them physically fitting into the space, or the smell that comes from a dirty place. Sometimes the neighborhood just isn’t enough.
I will stay until I can move on without despair. I will stay until I find a path I can follow. So I stay.
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